On the way to my good friend Tim’s house, I decided to challenge ourselves to see if we could write a song, record it, design the artwork and publish it on Noisetrade for free download… under 12 hours!

We started writing at around 8pm, able to finish the song around 1am, managed to sing on pitch after several tries after two cups of coffee at around 2am. Designed the artwork while Tim worked on laying all instruments down. We finally exported the track at around 7.30am, published it by 8am and went straight to bed.

A lot more could’ve been done to it, but I simply smile and enjoy it anyways knowing that we managed to do all of it in 12 hours. Here’s the product! Download it for FREE!


Abandon Ship (Acoustic)

This song is about anchoring your life in God’s grace and will. In every good and bad situation, let it be a celebration of His faithfulness. I depicted my life before knowing Christ as a sailor who set sail to find reason and one who had control over all until I heard the message of grace that Christ has come down from His throne and died to make me whole. In verse two, I used a paradoxical analogy of being able to breathe in the waters when you abandon the ‘ship’. Waters referring to water of life that will satisfy. And instead of anchoring yourself for safety, break it and let the winds guide the ship. (the Holy Spirit being referred to as the wind in Acts). The bridge reaffirms the idea of surrender when it says we’re sinking our ships to drown. To drown means to die of suffocation by submersion in water, and for a Christian that can symbolize the dying to self in order that Christ may live in us.

To read complete lyrics, click here.

Moving to North Carolina

At LU, there are just beautiful girls everywhere, brilliant minds everywhere, a highly concentrated, thick – you can cut it in the air –  atmosphere of social interaction. I get star struck every day seeing other students and yearn to be their facebook friend let alone get to know them personally. You can find instant gratification in others approval, you can dress to impress every single day, you can strive every single day to be the most popular person on campus. It was a drug.

Then I arrived in Northwest Arkansas, 16 hours away from the view of the monogram – no godly girl reading her bible after class, no guys to start a fire or jump a bridge with, the people who adore and support me are the senior adults, I don’t get cool points for the clothes I wear or the jokes I make and I live life with people from a different age group constantly. i.e Glenda the church receptionist, Billy Cotton our custodian, fellow staff members who are 20 years older than me, and about 120 high school and middle school students. It’s been like rehab for the social butterfly like me.  Nothing cool to tweet about, forget updating your status on facebook. No photos to tag yourself in.

That’s how my ‘Liberty bubble’ popped. I didn’t get to have intellectual discussions between classes, no professors, no motivational pastors/teachers/speakers 3 times a week, and strangers that will have a spiritual discussion with me. Liberty was the most life changing experience I had ever had, and don’t get me wrong, everything I stated in the first paragraph is good but I think we can all agree that being the most popular person on campus is kinda short of a life goal.

In the midst of my worlds colliding, I got to know myself. Just like finally tasting out of the slow cooker, I finally got a grip of who I’ve become over the past few years. It was refreshing, scary, but exciting. The aftertaste? Well, let’s just say it needed more salt.

What does the next world look like then? I chose CDH, a small community in Boiling Springs, NC where I’ll be under one roof with 7 other interns who are in similar stages in life as I am, we’re planning our next steps. My friend Matt Orth has accurately put it this way: Boiling Springs, where the finest rebels in the galaxy are uniting.

This ‘world’ is one glanced over by many, it’s the book that was sitting on your bookshelf your whole life but because of its dull and dusty cover written by an unknown author, it never changed your life until you accidentally discovered it.

I applied for Crossroads Worldwide Summer Camp in 2011 simply because I couldn’t afford to go back to Malaysia therefore needed a job in the States. I did not expect for it to change my life forever. In Boiling Springs, I found the most authentic Christians I have ever met, individuals who have braved the brokenness of the world, people who have learned things the hard way and realize that their relationship with Christ and fellow believers are all they have. They were not persuaded by crowds, money, or the ‘drugs’ of social interaction. Their instagram feeds were made up of their loved ones who were tagged out of sincere love, places and events that brought them together. They were more interested in excellence in their worship, teachability and humbleness in their attitude, intentional and affectionate in their relationships, committed to the great commission, and the most magnetic, infectious people I have ever met.

My faith came alive like never before through the most normal everyday life situations. It wasn’t an audible voice from God, or a miracle that took place. It was the truth of the Gospel demonstrated by words, actions, reactions, and thought. I saw the Bible come alive in daily intentional conversations at a coffeeshop, purposefully cheering for students for four hours under the hot sun when they arrive at camp, facilitating the same activities every day for five weeks with consistent excellence, staying up till midnight to engage others and even planning every single detail to ensure quality time is spent with the staff.

It was a lifestyle that the Bible seemed to talk about, that a sinner like me would never be able to grasp and imagine. It was a mountain top experience, a spiritual high, difference is it paved my valleys. I carried this lifestyle with me and it has never failed. It never fails to reach out to a person to have a genuine conversation or to manage your time wisely and plan ahead. It never fails to make the most mundane, boring life situations an adventure upheld with excellence as it is an offering to God.

What lies ahead of me is a year of submission under Godly leadership, being around some broken folks like me who are willing to be honest,learning and planning for the unbelievable, immeasurable, impossible tasks that Christ has set before us. Through the peace and wisdom that floods my heart and mind, I’ve chosen to open the puzzle box and piece it together rather than collecting the world finest paintings and hanging them in my living room. It certainly is not the world most prized and beautiful painting, yet.


To learn more about CDH, go here.

[Food] Guacamole

Ever since my first home cooked meal in Guatemala last summer, I’ve fallen in love with Avocados. This meal is perfect for a small lunch, an afternoon snack, or when you friends come over. I’ve added my asian touch by adding sesame oil at the end, it really adds to the earthiness of the guac and balances the lime by adding boldness to it. Enjoy!

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{Lyrics} Abandon Ship

With every soul disaster

I mature a little more than before

Every harm and scar

Reminds me of You

With every heart endeavor

I find You

For its my joy to make Your will my own.

I was the captain of this ship,

trying to find myself,

the rudder in my command, I set the course,

till I met the maker

of wind wave and water

like a gentle breeze he whispered in my ear

Abandon ship,

leave it all behind, this sea is so deep

you’re able to breathe in these waters;

Break off from your anchors,

that’s holding you down, let the rushing winds

blow you in its way.

See you don’t have to go

searching for your soul

for the king of it all, 

has come down from his throne…

and you can let it go

don’t you sell your soul

for the king of it all,

has died to make you whole

We are going nowhere….We’re sinking our ships to drown…We are diving, together, …..In these waters of grace right now

“With every heart endeavor

I find you

For its my joy to make Your will my own”